11/27（日本語は後に続きます） It is truly interesting that exactly two months after the surgery I started having a serious infection with J-tube. Suddenly the foul smelling pus started oozing out of the insertion site, soiling my clothes. …

11/16（日本語は後に続きます） The weather in New England has been gray and dark, and it is affecting my mood a lot. I have had difficulty dealing with cold and dark weather every year, maybe because I was born in a subtropical climate in J…

10/30 This Blog is about eating, sleeping and walking, which are occupying my days recently. It has been full two weeks since I started eating “somewhat” solid food. I have been feeding only two cans of food for the last few days, and expa…

10/17/06 (日本語を後にいれました） On Monday I went back to BWH for the post surgery check-up. The infection has cleared nicely, and everything else is going well. It is amazing how quickly the scars are healing. “You can eat anything you …

Tomorrow is the surgery day, and I am ready. During the past few days, Mark and I spent time in Maine. My esophagitis is cured almost 100%, and we could go out to restaurants and enjoy meals. According to Mark, I have been eating like a ho…

9/17/06 I have to go to BWM for pre-admitting test tomorrow, and I am reading fat information packets that were mailed to me. I have postponed reading them till now, and I am feeling that I should have read them before, the same feeling I …

8/30Mark and I drove up to Maine yesterday afternoon, with my feeding tube equipment, five pillows (to prop me up properly during the night), many music CDs, binoculars, a birdwatcher’s book, two computers, a guitar, and Mark’s research ma…

8/17It sounds a little crazy, but I worked for a company for an hour yesterday. When the job inquiry came about almost two months ago, I naively believed that I would be honky-dorry state enjoying the recuperation period. I even had hair t…

7/22Rainy weekend. We decided not to go to Maine, and to stay home instead. I started losing hair last weekend. Even though I hoped that skipping one chemotherapy would somewhat slow down the hair loss, it was wishful thinking. Even my son…

7/20 I went for acupuncture yesterday, and it was a "spa" like experience again. When you get a sickness like cancer, the amenity become increasingly limited, and you tend to forget "regular" fun and comfort. Acupuncture is one of the few …

I was supposed to go through the fourth chemotherapy today. I went to the radiology treatment first at 8:15, and then went to the oncologist’s office. It turns out, however, that my white blood cell count is too low to endure the therapy, …

6/29/06 My battle with nausea continues. Currently I am taking two kinds of anti-nausea medicines every 8 hours; Zofran and Lorazepam. Zofran prevents me from throwing up, but does not help me with appetite. Lorazepam has an anti-anxiety e…

6/22/06We went to BWH to retrieve CAT scan film, PET scan film, ultrasound picture, surgeon’s notes, and pathology report. I needed to get them for my appointment with a radiology oncologist on Friday. Again we had to drive 3 hours round t…

6/18/06 (Father’s Day and our 27th wedding anniversary) Today was the second day after discharge from the hospital. By now, a few processes have become routine; feed cans of nutrient through J-tube at night, flush the J-tube in the morning…

6/16/06 I stayed at the hospital for three days instead of two days. What surgery is all about is how much you can tolerate the pain… I never knew that, and I regret that I never really developed that kind of perseverance in my life. Even …